The more I have

The intention of my pages here at “Modesty Ablaze” is to promote Body Positive & Sex Positive issues and, most importantly, to make people smile and feel better than when they arrived.

I love life, and the more I have . . . the more I want!!!

Over the past thirty five years my personal life has exploded from a wonderfully liberated, but monogamous, marriage . . . into an amazing three decades of occasional lovers, experiencing a full “swinging” and open-marriage lifestyle . . . and . . . most recently, discovering, exploring and enjoying a truly wonderful journey into the world of BDSM and developing the female-dominatrix** side of my personality.

My husband and I have always enjoyed a wonderfully loving, open and sexually adventurous relationship. We tried most things together and regularly enjoyed evenings of sexual play and fun. Our love for each other was complete and never in question.

And yet, I still strayed. Un-expected, un-planned . . . something I never thought I (of all people) would, or could, ever do. And yet it happened. Lunchtime coffees with a work colleague, turned into evening meals, turned into . . .

Someone else liked me! Wanted me! Aroused me! Excited me! I couldn’t help myself . . . even the complete feelings of guilt and shame in the aftermath, couldn’t stop me. I enjoyed it, I wanted it, I needed it.

My husband insists he suspected / knew right from the start . . . but for several months said nothing. Our own sex (after my “meetings”) was passionate and more fulfilling than ever. And with pangs of guilt the next morning, I would tell myself I would stop my affair, I didn’t need it, it was wrong, it was immoral.

But I couldn’t stop, I couldn’t say no, I couldn’t refuse, I couldn’t deny it . . .

. . . just as I couldn’t deny it the day my husband confronted me with that “are you having an affair” question!!!

I thought it would shatter our world. I thought it would be the end of our marriage, that we’d have an explosive argument, floods of tears and abuse. But INSTEAD my husband told me he LOVED it . . . he LOVED the fact that I could experience the excitement and thrills of sexual adventure and pleasure with another man.

That day changed our lives . . . it made us each better people . . . and it made our relationship EVEN stronger and more loving and more fulfilling than either of us could ever have imagined.

That day was over 30 years ago!!! The different months and years (and yes different lovers) since have been a wonderful and incredible adventure . . . and new chapters continue to open before us.

I hope this blog may not only be a diary, a record, of some of the events and wonderful adventures we have experienced . . . but ALSO serve as an inspiration for people to understand that to express one-self, to completely open-up and admit all those inner sexual desires and emotions and fantasies . . . is not only a simple, basic part of your human nature, it is also your basic human right !!!

July 2014 Update: More thoughts on this are also covered in my “Past, Present and why I blog!” #wickedwednesday post >here< . . .

. . . and I hope my posts and videos at my MakeLoveNotPorn pages will illustrate just how much fun, and loving, a truly open and honest lifestyle can be, and how important that acceptance of the natural sexuality within all of us, can be.

The names within the pages of my published Diaries, and throughout my blog-posts here, have all been changed (or given numbers) to protect the “not-so-innocent”.

I do get lots, and lots, of questions asked about my lifestyle . . . and things I do, or don’t enjoy . . . and I have a Questions You Have Asked Me page, with answers to lots of the more frequent enquiries >here<.

Or you can always ask me new questions of your own from the contact form at the foot of my Members Page.

If you “follow” me from the “Don’t Miss Out!” link (top right) you will receive my email updates and may ask me for password access to my Protected Picture pages.

**You can join me in my BDSM adventure at my “Mistress Modesty” pages >here<.

10 Responses to The more I have

  1. Pingback: Thrilling Thursday with Lover No. 1 | modestyablaze

  2. I just found you by your comment on Penny’s bush in her elust post. I like your blog and gallery.

    Is there something special to get a password

    • Thank you for your message. If you would like to leave a comment on my Gallery page you will receive a password link for my “Unmasked” and “I’m feeling daring tonight” pages. Information on Passwords for my “Balcony Members Only” video page is available from the “My E-books” page link above. Please do let me know if you enjoy!

  3. Wil Treath

    Hi. My wife Nance and I love your blog and stories. Beautifully written. Nance has had many lovers for over 50 years of our married life and current lover is over 10 years her junior. I see so many parallels in your blog to my wife. Pleased to read that your husband enjoys your sexuality like I do of my wife’s. Please keep writing.

  4. JT

    I would love to meet you!

    • JT thank you for your flattering comment. I am currently half-way through a lovely holiday (in beautiful Greece), so able to keep with all my emails as much as normal. But I promise I will reply in more detail on my return to the UK.
      Xxx – K

  5. eye

    I am very clear that this is what I want now. Unfortunately my revelation didn’t go so well but you give me hope that it can happen.

  6. No one has laid our rights out like u in “the more I have” post great logic!!

  7. tariq

    wishing u a splashing time away hope u have many toys to play with being it naked touching your self as u are on holiday just thinking how u are going to enjoy yourself peace

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